Why you gotta be so rude?
Don’t you know I’m human too!
What you read above is pretty much what I wanna say to this cruel world. Today was a day well spent until evening. Thanks to them duo for such a wonderful day.
If I sent you link of this post then, you’re one such person in my life which I won’t wanna lose ever. Love you from the core of my heart. ❤️
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Today I am going to write about myself, like not really myself but somewhat about my destiny.
So, as I was saying that today was a very good day until evening. I’ll tell you what happened exactly. But, wait a while for that.
Let me give you a situation. Suppose you are X and you are friends with Y. Just a basic friendship in that case.
Now let’s add one more character C in our story which is a girl. C has a really really messed up life. Everyone’s making fun of her. Cracking jokes at her not so memorable past.
One fine day, you and Y are sitting among a group of buddies and someone happens to initiate talks about C.
Talks, being normal in the beginning and getting filthier every passing second. Conversations about C’s relationships. Her rendezvous. Her what-not!
You don’t know anyone except X in that group so, you are sitting alone in a corner wondering what the fuck is happening right there. And you take a note that Y is actively involved in those talks. Things about a girl which no one has right to talk about. Not even her parents. Yes, I mean it.
Now, what would you do? Well, I don’t know about you but as far as I am concerned, I can’t see something “THAT” extreme happening for a poor pathetic girl who doesn’t have the slightest idea of what is happening behind her back.
But, wait, I didn’t do anything. I just kept mum. Sitting there. Judging them people. Came home.
Now, after a few days what I see is C is talking to Y, completely unaware of what Y says or does behind her back. As, in front of her, he is the most sober kind of guy you’ll ever find.
This was something I couldn’t digest. So, somehow I approached her and told her about everything which she believed after she heard same things from a couple of her friends.
After getting to know all about this fiasco she wanted to confront Y. Who the hell was I to stop her? She had every right to do that.
I just told her to make sure my name doesn’t get involved in this fiasco as I have many other important things in life to care about and Y is also my friend so I don’t wanna ruin it. She promised me that. I’ll say it again, she promised me that!
A few days passed by and Y somehow came to know that I had filled C’s ears with some facts about him. She started behaving rudely and what not. I won’t mention that because I don’t think that is necessary. Just in short, Whatever he did, made me cry, like not wailing but yeah, I did cry.
During this whole time, there was only one thing that held me together. I’ll prefer to write it in hindi.
Koi na, is se dosti tooti to tooti kamse kam uska bura to nahi ho raha na. Wo to ye sochegi ki achha insaan tha.
And today’s evening was the eve when this fake belief of mine came to an end. What happened was literally unbelievable. I got a call from Y asking me to come home as he had some important work that involved my presence.
I rushed. Literally. I did. Then he asked me to come and sit with him and dialed C’s phone on speakerphone.
She picked up. Now i’ll be sharing it as a chat transcript in Hindi. Kindly refer below:-
Y: Hey C. Kaisi h?
C: Badhiya. Tu bta.
Y: Tko Niraj ne kya kya bola tha.
C: Usne mko bhadkaya tha tere khilaaf.
Y: Tko uski kisi baat pe trust hai ab?
Y: Mere se koi shikaayat?
C: Naa. Maine galat samjha. Sorry.
* Hangs Up *
For a minute I was like, What the hell did just happen!? Was it for real? Hanging up the call Y says,
Dekh liya? aisi hai ye. Kya mil gya tko bta ke. Kya faayeda hua tera?
Let me answer “Kya faayeda hua tera” first:-
The problem with people is they won’t see what good is happening to them. Instead they’ll ask, “Tum mere liye ye kar rahe ho, isme tumhaara kya faayeda hai?”
Sorry people, I am not of that kind who looks for his own good in anything or everything he does. I see something wrong happening. I protest it. Then and there. Period. End of discussion. It doesn’t matter who the hell that sinner is. It may be my closest friend or one of my family.
If you are wrong. You are. Admit it. There’s no running away from it.
After it all, Y asked, “Why did you do it?”. I said, “I didn’t have a good vibe about whatever was happening with that girl to justify my crime.
Haa ji, crime hi to hai ye. Kisi ke help karna. Kisi ka achha sochna. Because the thing is,
You’re may be the one doing good. Yet, you end up being the bad guy.
And this is what happens with me every time. You know, seriously, I have trust issues now. I am not sure of which person to trust or whom to not.
Aisa samah liya ki, meri kismat hi aisi messed up hai.
Meri haalat sach me Dhobi ke kutte ki tarah thi is situation me toh. Naa ghar ka, Naa ghaat ka.
I have a few questions now. Many of you know me personally. So, tell me. Please?
Why me? Every now and then.
Kisi ka achha sochna galat hai?
Shall I be selfish and mean?
Maine jo kiya isme kya galat tha?
Har baar mai hi kyu yaar!?
A few things to note:-
- I don’t know that girl personally.
- I have never met her.
- I have never seen her in person.
Yet, I did that. For me, It was right. Now comes the big question? Did it change me for worse?
My dad says,
Beta kisi aur ki wajah se kabhi apne aap ko change mat karna. Qki saamne wala sochega ki ye haar maan gya. Use itti power hi mat do ki wo aapko change kar paaye. Aap itne kamzor nahi ho. Aur kabhi change karo to achhe ke liye, Bure ke liye kabhi nahi
So, following his principles, THIS INCIDENT HAD NO ADVERSE EFFECT ON ME.
Yeah, I did get a text from her, I’ll share that here too:-
She: Sorry Nick, I told him your name. Blah Blah Blah and whatsoever.
I: Fuck off. Please?
She: It’s not done yet. I said lots of things to him.
I: Bugger off!!
Kasam se, life me pehli baar kisi ladki ko gaali likhi maine. And you know what? Y called her up again and she was like,
Abhi maine usko message kiya na to wo bolta hai fuck off.
I was laughing just like anything upon hearing that.
Despite these two messages, I didn’t say a word to her. I could have called her. Would have thrown a volley of abuses to her. But I didn’t.
Life is a good teacher. At some point of time in her life she’ll know the difference between good and bad. Then all she will ever be able to do is repent. At that time there would be no one to console her or to save her from spiraling down as she would have already lost such people by doing things such as what she did today.
And you know what? Despite all of it. If I see something wrong happening with her tomorrow. I’ll be the first one to object and defend her. Take it as a self praise or whatever. It’s just who I am. And you have to do a lot more than these things to change it.
Dear C, if you are reading it. Well don’t u dare feel sorry. U don’t even deserve my anger now, let alone mercy.
Thanks to them who cheered me up while I was feeling low. Thanks for caring. It feels good.
Thanks for just even asking what happened. Yes girl! I am talking about you ?
Love you all. And my sweetest sister, love you from the core of my heart. I won’t mention her name coz my blog is getting famous ?. You’re my inspiration.