Today was a memorable day. I had many ups and downs on this day. As usual let’s start with the morning episode.
Well, in fact I woke up at somewhat around 1PM. Yeah this is no time to wake up. I get it. I woke up to find out that I had a message saying good morning from my girl friend. There were a few sassy sentences from my friend Ankush too. He was asking me to help him with his website.
He is so excited for his website. But till now he hasn’t decided what look/theme he wants for his website. Once he does a bit of hard work on his website then at the very next moment he is so unhappy with the design. Well, take your time brother. I will help you, always. Doesn’t matter how many times you piss me off over this ?
So let’s get back to that message part. I texted her back saying good morning. What happened? She replied that nothing has happened.
I asked her if she was wide awake. She said yes. How foolish of me to ask me this question. She was awake then only she was texting me right? ?. Then i asked her to go to the doctor and get her eyes checked up. She was feeling pain in the eyes since 1 day. I don’t know why but I sensed that something is wrong. I asked her if she was okay. She said yeah. She was fine. But I know she was not fine. She was feeling bad. Maybe I was the reason. Whenever she gives me short replies it means she is not well.
Yet, I asked her to walk out of the bed and go get ready. She said that she was already prepped up. Still she was being all sassy that she could be. I mean she wasn’t saying harsh words to me but instead she was giving me the shortest replies that she could. She suddenly asked me that what was I about to say previous night just before she went to sleep. I said, Don’t accept unknown friend requests on Facebook and also to unfriend the ones who were already added on her friend list.
I sent her a pic of her complimenting in the way that she looked in that picture. She said, Thanks.
Then I ask her if she has had her breakfast. She said, No. Not yet. I’ll do it later. She asked me to have my meal on time. I said yes i’ll comprehend. I said her that I love you a few times to which she just said Love you too. No baby, jaan, jaanu, sweetheart or anything. I told her a few more things to which she just kept on saying hmm and okay. To clear the things up, She was just ignoring me. I felt that way. I know her by heart and soul and can easily tell when she is happy and when she isn’t.
She suddenly went offline at 11:25 AM and came back online when i messaged her around 1:28 PM. Her last seen was of some moments ago. I felt hurt. Couldn’t she even manage to say a hello or hi to me? She texted back after three minutes which said, “Hi.” I was so pissed off that I texted her writing Bye. She said why am i saying bye to her so soon.
I told her that I expected that she would reply to me or will text something else to me. She said that she was expecting the same from me. I was like, Why me every time dear.
I said nah you were ignoring me. Well that’s good. Go on. Then I asked her what has happened. She said nothing. I again asked her. Saying that please tell me. To which she replied, What could happen to me. I am alive and happy. What can be added more to this.
I was hurt by this reply so just said, I want you to be happy. Always. Doesn’t matter I am there to lookout there for you or not. She was like please now don’t talk like this. I don’t know what is the problem with me. Whenever I am angry or hurt I start acting in a weird way. At at that moment she was giving such short replies to me.
I was literally pissed off by then so I told her. If you wanna talk then talk nicely else tell me that you don’t wanna talk to me. This was a mere spark which caused such a fight between two lovebirds. We were about to go offline just then I told her to pickup my call as i was feeling very weird. She said she can’t pickup at that moment.
I started feeling very weird that moment. And was so sad. She sensed that and asked what was wrong. To which i replied that I am not feeling well, You always pick up fights with me. Also u say that you don’t wanna care. She felt sorry and as I loved her more than anyone else in this world I forgave her.
She promised that she will call me as soon as she gets free time. Then i went to brush my teeth and then I and Raj decided to go for our lunch. I didn’t feel like going at all. Thanks to the scorching sun above my head. Yet, he insisted and i went out with him. We went to some road side dhaba near Khirni Phatak. They were closed and we had no other hotel anywhere to be seen near us. So, we decided to go to Kata Pankha. It was a famous square so it would must have some good quality diners or restaurants.
The first one that Raj took me to was so filthy that I didn’t even feel like to get inside that. Meanwhile, While I was in auto Yukti was calling me as she had promised. So I called her up. While i was on the phone with her I kept narrating her the whole scene that was taking place around us. How we went to two more restaurants and both of them refused for food. So, finally we went to a garden restaurant called Kamal Restaurant. It was a high class garden restaurant.
My girl was still there on the phone with me. Raj wanted to talk with her and she was not being so polite to him so he cussed her about that. I was out to wash my hands. I came back and saw that he had disconnected the phone.
I called her back and asked what he said to her. To which she said nothing. He was just talking normally. I insisted then she told me about what happened. Just then, our food arrived. I told her about the same and then hung up.
We started having our meal. After finishing off with that we came out and Raj wanted an ice cream. So, i got him that. Got one for myself too. While we were having our meal I was telling about Pooja to Raj and he kept on telling me that Yukti is not the right girl for me. I just ignored him and came back home.
Called her back in the evening as she was not talking in a nice tone so I just lashed out at her. Poor baby. I am so sorry. But what i think that it was necessary. It was necessary that I should tell you about how I really felt and how I loved her. While I was yelling at her at some point she started crying. That melted my hear. I can never see anyone cry. Even if he/she is my enemy i can’t see them cry. But in this case she was my world my everything. How could i not forgive her.
I am glad that she understood that and didn’t take it in a wrong way. And she promised me that she will try and improve herself. And I saw that improvement. She became more close to me and started sharing all her personal stuffs with me.
Ishu, I love you. More than anything and anyone else in this world. Don’t ever hurt me.
That’s all for today.
Goodnight Ishu, Daddy & Diary.