6th June

Hello Diary,

2:03 AM

Good morning to you. Today was a beautiful day. The day started very well barring the fact that I had a sleepless night as my website’s SQL server crashed and I lost access to all of my websites.

I had to stay awake all night working on it and kept on e-mailing Alex about the issues and possible outcomes.

I slept around 5:30 AM in the morning and woke up at 9:30 AM. Inadequate sleep. Yeah, I see that.

I was awoken by the voice of my BFF Ajay/Ashu. He was there with his hard drive as he had to exchange some stuffs with me. I woke up instantly powered up my laptop and gave it to him. After some time I had a severe headache. It felt like as if my head was gonna burst right off. I told about it to Ajay and the first thing that he asked was, “At what time you went to bed?” I was like, yeah,  I haven’t slept enough. He said brother get some sleep.

To which i obliged and went back to sleep. A few hours later I was awoken again but this time it was my iPhone, a call from Yukti. I felt so happy. Called her back. Had a very nice talk for around 2 hours. We both were still in bed and had that heavy sleepy voice. I loved this version of her voice too. ?

While I was talking to her Aditya kept on teasing me with the stuffs like, Baby, come to me. Kabhi humein bhi time de diya karo. We were to go for a light breakfast at famous Jhammu’s Hotel. I told him that I will be there in 5 minutes and that 5 minutes lasted more than 30 minutes. I wasn’t ready to let go of her. I wanted to keep talking to her forever. But, somehow, I convinced myself and let go off of her.

Brushed in a haste, got ready and finally I and Adi went out to that Hotel. Had bun samosas and cold coffee for our breakfast. And came back. By the time we were back it was around 12:45 PM. We had our lunch at 1:00 PM so we scurried towards mess.

It felt so good to be at the place where I spent most precious 6 years of my life as a Army Officer Cadet. All the good vibes were coming back to be. All the memories came back of the fun and mischief we had. The food was also nicely served. We have a non-veg diet plan on Mondays but as Ishu had prohibited me from eating any of the non-veg stuff I stayed a vegan. After lunch I came back and decided to call my lady luck. She responded very well.

Today, honestly, I felt so special because of my so special angel Yukti. She called me first in the morning and then I almost kept talking to her the entire day. Also annoyed her in a stupid way, by sending her bogus smileys and imitating the same stuff which she said. She got so pissed off at me. I sensed that something is not right and called her right away. She was angry with me, in her oh-i-am-so-pissed-off avatar. I love the way she becomes furious then calms down instantly. Darling, I wanna be your’s forever.

In the evening I talked to her about the things that i feel insecure about, words of wisdom (although I am a fool to her ?) and all other sort of stuffs. She was all alone at his maternal grand-father’s house. I guessed that she felt insecure over the thought of me leaving her for some other girl. Nah princess, this is never gonna happen. I will love you and only you till the end. No matter even if the fairies come to me from the heaven above, I will choose you. Coz they can’t be you. They can’t love me like you do. You are my sunshine, my drug, my everything.

We made a deal that at first I will tell her all the things which I had kept buried till now. And then, later, she will tell the same from her point of view. She is seriously so damn clever, she always makes me do whatever she wants but never agrees to whatever I say. No bad feelings though. I love this habit of her’s too.

I requested her so damn much but at last as it always happens in a husband’s and wife’s fight. The wife won. She postponed her schedule to tell me all the things that she feels about me today (then then next day). I just can’t wait till the morning for her to call me up. At times I feel like going to her, embrace her in my arms, hug her close to my heart and plant a soft and beautiful kiss on her lips. But the distances ?.

While I was talking to her I got a call in waiting from Payal. I told Ishu about it and asked her to wait for some time as Payal would be calling her back. After she talked to my girl Ishu gave a missed call back. I called her up and asked about the conversation between them. I came to know that my sister called her by her name. I felt so bad, I want her to be respected. After all she is my wife now.

I called up Payal back and asked her the reason for such behavior and her reply was such a surprising one. She said that she didn’t call her Didi because I am her brother and if she calls her as her sister then our relationship would be ruined. So smart of you sister. You have got such a nice little brain. ?

In the evening all of the friends decided to go on a city tour. So, i booked a cab and went to Miraj mall first. As soon as I arrived at the entrance there was a phone call from my love. I called her back. And started talking to her. But I was not able to give her the attention she deserved. She was alone at her house and even I left her alone. I decided to hang up as I was not able to give attention to her nor my friends. Yukti, baby, I’m so sorry. But I had only this day to celebrate. I laughed to my heart’s content today. While rest of the days I just keep lying on my bed or doing all the boring stuffs.

Aditya went for a bull ride and trust me it was so damn funny. I kept laughing as hell. The way he clung to the bull was so damn funny. I have a vlog of that.

Later, we went to PizzaHut ate my favorite Spice Overloaded Signature Pizza. The rest of the guys went to watch the Houseful 3 movie. I and Adi took a leave. I was having a slight stomach ache so I wanted to get back to school ASAP. While I was in the way I called my love so many times but she didn’t respond. Yeah, I get it. I am an idiot. I left you alone when you needed me the most. I am so sorry darling. It won’t happen over again. Promise.

I came back from that trip and started to work on fixing my server. Which i did after some 10-15 minutes. As soon as I did that she messaged me. I told her that I was sorry and I also felt bad for her. Baby, i will make up for this. I promise. The day we meet that day will be the best day of your life. I will try to make that day so special for you.

So this is it for today. It’s 2:55 AM now and I’m gonna get some sleep now.

I was hurt only once this whole day. When I told her all my feelings and insecurities and asked her to do the same she declined. She said, “Aur koi baat nhi mili kya krne ko.”. And she also didn’t live up to her promise. Although she has promised me that she will be telling me all that I wanna know the next day. Well I am waiting for that moment.

Relationship is all about understanding and caring for each other. So, this time I wasn’t angry or pissed off at her. Instead I co-operated with her and told her, Baby, it’s okay. I can wait.

Enough for today. I am feeling so sleepy at the moment.

Goodnight Ishu, Goodnight Daddy, Goodnight Diary.

With love

Nick