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The Day I Almost Lost Her

Hello Diary, Good evening. Today’s entry is gonna be a very short one as today’s day was not that happening. Most of the time of the day spent in traveling and sleeping. So, let’s start ? Gajender woke me up today in the morning at somewhat around 10:00 AM. He asked me when I’ll be leaving for Jaipur, to which i replied, when I’m satisfied with my sleep. Then he was like everyone’s leaving. If u wanna go then you may go with them. Else you’ll be alone later. This sounded right. I immedia

Nick

Nick

7 Jun 2016 7 min read
The Day I Almost Lost Her

Hello Diary,

Good evening. Today’s entry is gonna be a very short one as today’s day was not that happening. Most of the time of the day spent in traveling and sleeping.

So, let’s start ?

Gajender woke me up today in the morning at somewhat around 10:00 AM. He asked me when I’ll be leaving for Jaipur, to which i replied, when I’m satisfied with my sleep.

Then he was like everyone’s leaving. If u wanna go then you may go with them. Else you’ll be alone later. This sounded right. I immediately got up and said, Chalo ab to chalte hai.

I got up, brushed my teeth in a haste, took a quick shower and got ready.

Aditya booked the cabbie and then we left for the railway station. Got the tickets and came on platform number 2 to board our train.

Before boarding our train, as a dutiful husband,i felt like calling up my wife and thought of informing her that i am en route and so i won’t be in a good network coverage. Though it was still 11o’ clock and my baby generally keeps on sleeping till this time of the day. Yet, i called her up.

As per my expectations she was sleeping. But minty di was being the butter between two breads. She disconnected the call, nah not normally but, by picking up and then hanging up.

Then, we boarded the train. I and Adi hadn’t eaten anything since morning and we could feel the rumbling in our stomaches so, we decided to come down on the platform and have something to eat.

We were at the far end of the platform and no registered railways vendor was there to be seen, so, we went up to a local vendor and I bought a bottle of mineral water as i never drink water from the storage tanks. I got myself a fruit cake too. That was enough for me. I couldn’t buy anything unpacked coz i am not sure of the hygiene of those products.

Adi decided to get some samosas for himself. He was about to ask the vendor just then I noticed the vendor that he was scratching his sweaty bulgy stomach with his hands. I literally felt like i was gonna throw up. I gestured Aditya to see that act of him. Adi said, Mit gyi bhookh. Packaged biscuits le lete hain. Yhi khaye apne samose.

Then we came back to our coach. We sat for some time and then the train started for it’s destination. We cheered.

We ate whatever we could and then started talking of the good times that we had spent together and all other military related stuffs. I was feeling sleepy so i plugged in my headphones and dozed off.

I woke up after 30 minutes. We were so irritated by the number of cockroaches. They kept appearing every now and then, at the places you can’t even think of. We all started cursing Rajnikant who had held the place for us. Couldn’t he find some place better than this? Yet, we had to tolerate.

I thought of Yukti then, If she would have been here she would definitely have freaked out. I was picturing that scene in my mind and that made me smile. Adi got that and teased me saying, Mai samajh rha hu tu q has rha h. And then he started jumping and acting like girls. That made everyone laugh out loud.

After a journey of about 2 hours i finally arrived at Jaipur. I was so sad to leave my friends, not sure of how and when i will be able to see/meet them again. I missed Aditya the most. We were so close buddies. We shared a special bond for each other. So, we just hugged each other, trying not to cry, faking smiles and said good bye.

My friend Dheeraj was there with me as he lives a couple of blocks away from my home. When our train arrived at Jaipur station the entrance gate was so damn crowed that you can’t even think of. We just got pushed away with the crowd. When we finally got our feet on the platform Dheeraj teased me saying, Mr. Ambani please check your wallet and iPhone if they are still there. I was like oh come on. Stop teasing me. We both laughed then!

We then came out of the station and I booked a cabbie as i couldn’t take anymore of the heat. Dheeraj’s home is somewhere on the way back from the station. So, I gave him a lift which he gladly accepted. In the car we were listening to Wakhra Swag by Badshah. Dheeraj loved this song. So, I turned the volume all the way up. A few minutes later I dropped him off and rode further on my way back home.

When I reached home, I was so damn tired. I just needed to get out of my clothes, freshen up and go to sleep.

I was just sitting on the bed while Raj was busy doing something in the kitchen. Just then, the evil didi came in the room. He asked me to help Raj with his work. I was so damn tired and irritated and she has such a duck faced shape, I hate her. The reason is quite obvious. I said in a harsh tone, Agar use help chahiye hogi to wo mujhe bol dega. M abhi just aaya hu. Bohot thaka hua hu. She taunted me asking Raj that he should come and massage my feet. I was so damn frustrated on listening to that. I said, Mujhe jaroort nhi h koi massage ki. Chahiye hogi to mai le loonga. Aap faaltu me beech me mat aao. Apne kaam se kaam rakho.

She knew that I was pissed off at her and I won’t take any of her bullshit so she just left the room.

I called up my love then, only to find out that she was a bit angry and was also busy. I was feeling very sleepy. So, i dozed off. When I woke up after a few hours I thought that there would be some texts/missed calls from her. But there were none to be seen anywhere on my phone’s screen.

Disappointed, I slept again. Woke up after a couple of minutes and then called her up. She was also sleeping at that time. I love her sleepy voice too much ??

We talked for some time and then hung up. I felt as if she was still upset on me.

Then in the evening Raj came to me and asked me to go for dinner with him. Which we gladly did. After having our dinner I was chatting to Yukti. She asked me to come over and meet her. I thought she was joking but she said she was serious about it. That’s when I got serious. Told Raj and asked her address. Then she started throwing tantrums that di is sleeping. I don’t know the address and other stuffs.

This literally pissed me off. I had never ever done such thing to her. I mean I had never joked on her feelings. I was hurt. Raj was taking all the advantage that he could of this situation. He kept on saying that she doesn’t love you. She is just passing her time.

I got a bit pissed off at her. And picked up a fight. As always she was all ready with her gun loaded to fight with me. This hurt me a lot. Then all the memories came haunting back to me at that moment. I told her that I wanna breakup with you, To which she said, Yeah. Okay. Fine.

This also broke my heart. Generally she says that she can’t live without me. But what is this then? Why did she let go of me so easily? I was expecting that she would try to calm me down. Will tell me that everything’s okay and will be there by my side. Hurt by all of these stuffs I decided to put an end to this misery. I formally broke up with her. She said, Yeah. Okay. Bye. I won’t bother you from now on. That line of her left me in tears.

Girl, I love you so much. Yet, you just let go off of me. I was expecting you to care and understand. Then I asked her, Ishu why don’t you care. To which she replied something that I am never gonna forget in ages. She said, She couldn’t care. I felt like this is the end of the world for me. So, said her goodbye and went offline. With tears in my eyes. Just then, I heard my iPhone’s ringtone. I thought it would be her calling me to console me and pamper me. But, instead, it was a call from my best friend Pooja.

She was there for me when I needed someone to support me and hold my hand. She made me feel alright. I shared all the stuffs with her. To which she said, That it was my fault. I am way too good for people and in today’s world it is a bane. But anyways, at the end she made me laugh my doing all the silly things that she could think of. I love u girl. For who you are. Just stay the same, always. You’re such a nice person.

I then thought of sleeping and was about to do so. Just then I got a text from Yukti. Asking me not to leave her in such a mess. She needs me. And she was aware that she was at fault. She said she will do whatever i want. Love, I don’t want to command you. I love you. I don’t want to make you do things. I want you to do the things at your will.

I love her so much so I couldn’t see this version of her any longer. I patched up with her. Made her feel alright and then dozed off to sleep.

A hell of a day it was.

Once you lose someone, it is never exactly the same person who comes back.

Let’s see what’s in store for me in the future. That’s all for today.

Goodnight Ishu, Goodnight Dad, Goodnight Diary.

With love

– Nick